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Post by kris on Oct 11, 2008 14:08:44 GMT 1
Kristian blushed, biting on his bottom lip and staring at his shoes for a few moments. He also smiled a bit though, feeling the unrepressable urge to reach out and run his fingers through Louis' hair. So he did, albeit hesitantly. It was soft, like he had imagined it to be. Would his skin be soft too? They didn't often touch, not even hug.
"I need you to. Please?"
He felt that warmth again, and something tingly in his stomach. Was this what other people called having butterflies? It was a good description, because it really felt like something had come alive inside of him. Kris looked at Louis, who had closed his eyes and wondered whether or not he should do this.
It was scary, making a decision, and he tried to steer clear of such things as often as he could. Now, however, he felt like he had to do something at least. If he didn't kiss Louis, then maybe the other would feel worried and scared and it would ruin their friendship. If he did...then maybe Louis wouldn't be so angry when it turned out to be rubbish?
Unaware of the fact that Louis was glancing at him through his lashes, he closed his eyes and took a few deep breaths. Then he reopened them, realizing that he couldn't kiss Louis if he had no idea where he would find the others lips. They might just crash into each others foreheads, and it would ruin the mood, and Kris really wanted to kiss the Hufflepuff. So he leaned in, eyes barely opened, and softly placed his lips against the others mouth.
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Post by louis on Oct 11, 2008 15:42:46 GMT 1
Louis shivered softly as Kris touched his hair, moving a little closer to the other boy. He wondered briefly why it was they avoided touching each other. Louis, like most of his family, was very affectionate, always hugging people. But something about Kris had always made him hold back. Now that he thought about it, he couldn't explain it. It didn't make much sense, especially since now that they were touching it felt so good.
Then Kris's lips touched his and the world seemed to fall away beneath him. He shivered again and returned the gentle pressure, unsure of what else to do. He didn't think this was exactly how the kiss between the two people on screen had looked. But maybe he was doing it wrong. Still it felt nice, so maybe he was panicking for no reason.
After a moment or two he pulled back, and kissed Kris on both cheeks, fighting the sudden urge to giggle. "Thank you." He whispered, surprised to find he was rather breathless. He ducked his head again and peeked at Kris through the fall of his blonde hair.
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Post by kris on Oct 11, 2008 15:48:23 GMT 1
It wasn't like the kisses his boss gave him. At all. There was pressure there, not just physical, but to kiss back, to pretend to enjoy it. With Louis there wasn't any of that. There was just a warm feeling, the insane urge to smile and stay close. It felt good to touch the other boy. He'd always been hesitant of physical contact, not just with his best friend but with everyone. It could be traced back to the harsh treatment his father had given him. Somehow people touching him always made him flinch.
But with Louis it wasn't like that. It was nice, he was warm and fuzzy and sweet. And he tasted sweet too, Kris noticed in the few seconds that their lips stayed attached. Then Louis pulled back and thanked him. He was smiling, but it still felt like he had done something wrong. Something that made the younger male pull away. So he frowned a little, looking at Louis with shy eyes. "Was it bad?"
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Post by louis on Oct 11, 2008 18:47:54 GMT 1
Louis shook his head quickly at the question, his dark eyes wide and truthful. "No no it wasn't bad." He said quickly, his cheeks going red once again. "It was n-nice. It's just..." He hadn't known what to do next. The kiss had made him feel things, weird things he didn't understand.
"It's just, the movie is over now." He gestured to the screen upon which the credits were now rolling. That meant it was almost curfew, and they would have to get back to their dorms quickly to avoid getting into trouble.
Louis shifted, pushing his hair out of his face and twisting the ring on his finger nervously. In a way he did really want to be alone now, but at the same time he wanted Kris to kiss him again. His sister was a Ravenclaw and that meant he would have to wait until the next morning to talk to her about all this. He hated not understanding his own feelings.
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Post by kris on Oct 11, 2008 19:33:57 GMT 1
"No no it wasn't bad. It was n-nice. It's just...It's just, the movie is over now."
Oh. Kris nodded, looking back at the credits. He knew that it meant curfew, that he didn't have much of a choice, but it still felt like it was something more than that. He felt like he had to apologize for being so stupid and kissing him, even if Louis had asked. He got an uneasy feeling, fidgeting a little. This was partly why he severely disliked taking risks and making decisions.
"Okay." Kristian looked at the hands in his lap, wondering why they still felt like touching the other. It had made him all warm and happy and now he just felt cold and alone. It was something strange, something he had never experienced whilst in the company of the younger Hufflepuff.
Maybe it was bad and Louis was just too nice to say anything about it. Maybe he now thought that kissing him had been a mistake. Kris briefly wondered how he could learn to do it better, then realized that even if he learned, Louis would probably not want to try again anymore. The thoughts running through his head almost made him cry.
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Post by louis on Oct 11, 2008 22:41:29 GMT 1
Louis frowned as Kris bowed his head. The other boy seemed hurt, but he didn't understand why. "Umm and.. I... would you walk me to my dorm please?" He asked, standing up and taking Kris's hand. "Because it's getting dark early and I get scared so... that's why I wanted to go now... are you mad with me?"
He knelt down quickly in front of were Kris sat, looking up into his friend's face. "Kris?" He bit his lip, doing his best to hold back tears. Everything felt so bad now.
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Post by kris on Oct 12, 2008 12:33:04 GMT 1
"Umm and.. I... would you walk me to my dorm please?"
Kristian looked up again, hesitant eyes meeting Louis brown ones. He always loved that little ring of blue around the pupil, which was both unique and adorable. A small hand slid in his and he focused his gaze on it for a moment, before the other continued speaking. "Because it's getting dark early and I get scared so... that's why I wanted to go now... are you mad with me?"
He shook his head, feeling something similar to relief bubbling through his body. He had all but forgotten about Louis' fear of the dark and got up. "No" Kris assured his friend softly, "I'm not mad. I was just worried that you'd...you know...not like me kissing you." There was still a small blush on his cheeks, which intensified when he debated about telling him he wanted to do it again.
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Post by louis on Oct 12, 2008 13:30:30 GMT 1
Louis felt a rush of affection for the older boy. He stood up quickly and flung his arms around Kris's neck, hugging him tightly. "I liked it when you kissed me." He assured him, willing Kris to believe him. He had liked it, and he wanted him to do it again, but they didn't have the time now. Somewhere in the castle he heard a clock strike the hour, though it was too far away for him to count the chimes. The other boys in his dorm would probably be in bed now.
Still he couldn't just rush off, there was so much left to say. "But it's a bit scary, things are going to change with us now... aren't they?" He went on softly. He didn't think things could just continue between them as they always had. Friends didn't kiss each other like that, and these new feelings that were troubling him weren't feelings of friendship. It was something more, something deeper and stronger than before. Something that made him want to say close to Kris, that made the thought of stepping back a terrible one.
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Post by kris on Oct 12, 2008 13:57:21 GMT 1
Kristian was hugged and immediately felt so much better, hugging him back and smelling Louis' shampoo. He was happy, giddishly happy to hear that Louis had liked the kiss, and gently kissed his ear. He kind of wanted to do it again, but he didn't want his best friend in trouble, so perhaps just taking him towards his Common Room was a good idea.
"But it's a bit scary, things are going to change with us now... aren't they?"
"They don't have to" Kris looked down at Louis, a bit scared to really meet his eyes. "They could, if you want them to. We could be...closer than friends. But it doesn't have to change if you don't want it." He didn't want to make this decision for him. Yes, he cared, a lot, but it was also scary. He so needed someone to talk to about this.
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Post by louis on Oct 12, 2008 14:15:36 GMT 1
Louis felt a shiver run down his spine at Kris's touch, then giggled as he tickled his ear. He pulled up a little and looked up at him, dark eyes shining. "Are you going to be my boyfriend now?" He asked, hoping the answer would be yes. It seemed the right thing to do now, since they had kissed, and since Louis wanted Kris to kiss him again.
He frowned then, wondering what time it was. He really didn't want to get in trouble again so soon after being sent to Professor Grey. The Professor had been very kind, but Louis was sure he wouldn't be happy if he arrived at his door two days in a row. Besides Kris was a prefect, it would be awful if he was caught breaking the rules.
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