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Post by levi on Jan 3, 2009 1:07:00 GMT 1
♥ ♥ l e v i. there's always some reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day. ”Sometimes I wish that he would...I don’t know. Find someone who would make him happy. Jasper does, or he used to. Things have changed between them.”
Levi blushed softly at this, images of him and Rhys flooding into his mind when Kris suggested that the other Ravenclaw find someone who would make him happy. Upon recognizing his reaction, the boy quickly attempted to distract himself by pulling a bracelet off of his wrist and twirling it around in his fingers. 'Don't think of Rhys like that..' he scolded himself silently, still stretching and toying with the accessory in his hands. Of course, the pictures failed to disappear. He's..he's your friend. Don't think of him like that!'
Shutting his eyes for a short moment, Levi slid the bracelet back onto his wrist and yet again forced himself to calm down. He could feel the heat of the fire gently breathing on his face, and he could hear it crackling and spitting up embers. It was oddly relaxing, and it allowed him to think more-or-less clearly and form a response. "Er, yeah, he should..um, do that." His eyes had opened, and Levi paused before thinking of something else to continue with. "And what..what happened with him and Jasper?" Had they had a fight or something?
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Post by kris on Jan 3, 2009 1:19:20 GMT 1
There was definitely something off about the younger male’s reaction, Kris had to bite his lip in order not to open his mouth and ask what was going through Levi’s brain. He kept telling himself that he would scare him off but Merlin, it made him feel so sorry for the Hufflepuff, the way he seemed to be in turmoil. He blinked once, trying to focus on the conversation instead even if he didn’t have a proper answer.
Shrugging a shoulder, Kris looked towards the fire again. ”I’m not sure. I don’t think that they’ve actually had a fight...but I think that Rhys is just upset that Jasper is spending so much time with Gale. It’s like he misses the one person that tells him he’s worth it or something.” The last part was pure speculation, but the Ravenclaw knew that the other male definitely cut a lot less when he got his daily dose of Jasper Cole. Maybe their relationship was a bit sick and twisted, Kristian wasn’t sure of much when it came to the two, only that he knew Rhys needed the other desperately.
”I wish someone else would tell him that. He’s such a sweet guy underneath it all, but nobody bothers to look. They all think he’s some weirdo. Or they think that he’s Jaspers pet or something.” The Prefect saw a lot when it came to his friends. Most of his nights were spent in the Common Room, watching his classmates and taking in little bits and pieces of information that others didn’t seem to notice.
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Post by levi on Jan 3, 2009 1:41:09 GMT 1
♥ ♥ l e v i. there's always some reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day. 'I'd tell him he's worth it..' The Hufflepuff thought to himself, but of course he said nothing of the sort out loud. His own thoughts coaxed another light flush to fill his cheeks, and he looked at the novel resting on the chair's arm. 'Maybe..I don't think I'm as straight as I think I am..' He blinked, still staring at the book. 'No. I know..I think..I'm straight.' Levi turned back toward Kris, feeling rather confused at the moment and wanting to fling himself at the other and cry. Maybe there was a reason people treated him like he was younger than he actually was.
"Yeah, I wish someone would, too... He is worth it." Levi nodded softly, and then spoke once again just in case Kris interpreted his last couple words in the wrong (or right) way. "He needs someone to let him know." Owens watched the Ravenclaw stare into the fire for a moment, still feeling rather emotional and unsure of himself. Levi wanted to hug someone, yet at the same time he didn't. Not to mention, if he randomly pounced on Kris and hugged him he would doubtlessly start sobbing, and that would be both unexpected and awkward for the older boy.
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Post by kris on Jan 3, 2009 2:00:06 GMT 1
Kristian listened to those words and decided he’d had enough. Standing up from his cozy armchair near the fire, he moved over to sit next to Levi, casually resting a hand on his shoulder. ”We’re not here to talk about Rhys though, are we?” He said softly, gazing down at the younger boy with warm green eyes. It wasn’t forcing him to tell the truth, but he just wanted the Hufflepuff to know that he was there. That Levi didn’t have to go through this (whatever this was) alone. He wasn’t the type of guy to minimalize other peoples problems, no matter what it was.
”Are you okay, Levi?” He cared so much. In a way, Levi was the younger brother he’d never had. He knew that the boy was fifteen and he often treated him as such, even as an adult when they struck up a conversation, but in some cases he felt like protecting him and taking care of him. Making things easier, if he could. He knew that the boy could handle a lot more than he gave himself credit for, but he also knew that not everyone had to face everything on their own – even if they thought they did. ”Whatever it is, you can tell me.”
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Post by levi on Jan 3, 2009 18:48:18 GMT 1
♥ ♥ l e v i. there's always some reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day. Kris stood up and moved to sit next to the Hufflepuff, causing Levi to squish to one side of the armchair to make room for the other. It was a tight fit, not to mention slightly odd, but the younger boy didn't mind. Having Kris so close was rather...comforting. It was second best to hugging him. The older boy's hand lifted and sat upon Levi's shoulder, and his green eyes lowered to mix with the blue. Owens smiled softly and looked down. It was almost as if he knew. Yet again, Kris's tones and actions coalesced together in that "I know that you're hiding something" fashion.
"Uhm," His words were soft, hesitant. This was his chance -- this was his basically his last chance to tell Kris about the feelings that were nagging at him day in day out. Sure, Levi could always steer the conversation back to Rhys in the future, but he doubted he would actually have the courage to do so. 'Just tell him. He said you could tell him anything. He won't judge you.'
Levi's large aqua eyes lifted to stare into Kris's own for a moment, and he nervously brushed his bangs to the side. "Kris.." Levi swallowed. This was taking much more effort than he'd imagined it to take. His head was screaming and every second he was changing his mind -- back and forth, tell him, don't tell him. "Well...I think that I might...erm.." Once again, Owens looked away from his friend. "I think I might like boys." The last sentence was barely a whisper.
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Post by kris on Jan 3, 2009 19:39:44 GMT 1
Kristian was glad that Levi scooted over a little, seemingly appreciating the attempt to comfort him. He left his hand on the smaller boys shoulder, looking at him expectantly. Hopefully the younger male would tell him...he was seriously worried now that something bad had happened. What if someone had hurt him? Though the Ravenclaw wasn’t a vicious or vindictive person, he would literally rip anyone who hurt Levi to shreds. The boy deserved the world.
When the words finally slipped from Levi’s mouth, the confession to liking boys in the air, Kris couldn’t help but smile for a moment, relieved. ”You like boys?” His voice was soft, hand gentle as he reached for Levi’s chin, trying to turn the younger boys face back to his, so he could see how the older boy was taking this confession. ”Does it bother you?” It wasn’t exactly what he had wanted to say, but he couldn’t help wondering, since the confession had been so quiet and rushed. Levi knew that he liked boys, knew that he was dating one even, so he wasn’t quite sure why it had been a big deal to confess to this.
”Because it’s okay to like boys, I hope you know that” Voice gentle, Kris let go of Levi’s chin, petting his hair for a moment. If Levi needed someone to confide him, well he was happy to be the one to help him through anything. ”It’s scary, but it’s okay.”
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Post by levi on Jan 3, 2009 20:29:03 GMT 1
♥ ♥ l e v i. there's always some reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day. The other spoke softly, his hand moving to Levi's chin. Of course, this sent a small ripple of nervous fear trickling down the Hufflepuff's spine. He hoped that Kris hadn't thought he was talking about him and was about to kiss him -- it sure seemed slightly possible at the moment, what with the Ravenclaw turning his head toward him and all. The smaller boy was scared sick for a few seconds, hundreds of thoughts blitzing his mind in barely a couple of heartbeats. 'No, no, calm down. You're insane Levi, really. He's not going to do anything -- he has a bloody boyfriend. Calm down!'
He hardly calmed down until Kris released his chin, however, only staring at the boy with a mixture of emotions -- anxiety, confusion, depression -- and listening to what the other was saying. When he finally did let go, Levi had to force himself not to turn away again. He felt stupid, as he usually did after overreacting -- which normally occurred on a daily basis. Still, he had just confided something in Kris. He thought it more appropriate to be looking at him.
"I...know it's okay," he spoke softly, finding himself unable to continue to hold Kris's gaze. "it's just.." Just what? Levi wasn't completely sure. He himself wasn't completely positive as to why this was such a big deal to him, but it was and he couldn't do anything to solve that. He wanted to tell Kris about Rhys, too, but he couldn't figure out how to go about doing so. He felt like flat-out declaring it would be a bit extreme, but it was also the only way he could think to admit it.
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Post by kris on Jan 3, 2009 21:08:26 GMT 1
"I...know it’s okay, it's just.."
”There’s someone you like?” If Levi wasn’t worried about it being alright, it had to be this, didn’t it? Kristian wondered who it could be, the thought that it might be him never crossing his mind, because he thought it was a miracle that Louis had noticed him in that way. He didn’t think it was Rhys either though, because they had been talking about him and it would have been much easier for Levi to simply state that he liked him rather than avoiding the subject.
”Does he...seem interested as well?” Merlin, he hoped it was someone nice. Someone who would treat the Hufflepuff the way he deserved. Gave him love and affection and didn’t ask too much. He would have suggested Ash if he wasn’t sure that the boy was already crushing on someone else. Still, he hoped it would be someone as gentle as the disabled blonde, though he was drawing a blank as to figuring out who it could be. Levi wasn’t exactly a social butterfly and he doubted the younger boy would randomly crush on someone he barely knew. So it was a friend. It had to be. But who?
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Post by levi on Jan 3, 2009 21:38:03 GMT 1
♥ ♥ l e v i. there's always some reason to feel not good enough and it's hard at the end of the day. The first question earned a simple nod from the Hufflepuff, although his mouth remained closed. He thought he liked someone -- he wasn't completely sure, but he thought so. It was a rare occurrence in itself for him to even crush on anyone, and this was definitely the first time he'd felt anything more than friendship towards another boy. Maybe it was just friendship. Maybe he was simply confused -- it certainly wouldn't be the first time.
Kris spoke again, and Levi shook his head this time. "No, I don't think so," he whispered, staring down at his shoes. That was fine, though -- the boy wasn't sure if he was into this whole relationship thing, anyway. Life was simpler without love. Levi didn't want to mess up his friendship with Rhys by becoming anything more -- even if the other boy did like him.
Which the Hufflepuff was almost sure he didn't.
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Post by kris on Jan 3, 2009 21:55:54 GMT 1
His heart sank when he heard Levi mumbling how this boy he might be into wasn’t interested in him. Poor kid. And stupid whoever it was. How could they not like this sweet Hufflepuff? He was adorable and pretty and one of the sweetest people in the entire school. Whoever didn’t like him obviously wore a blindfold. Whatever made him say it, he didn’t know. Perhaps it was the name lingering in his head from their earlier conversation on, maybe he had connected them together unconsciously.
”Pity it isn’t Rhys.” He murmured, toying with a strand of his hair as he spoke. Levi and Rhys would make a good couple, or that was his opinion anyway. The Ravenclaw needed to find someone who would take care of him and protect him from harm, who accepted him the way he was and didn’t treat him like his back-up option. It was the feeling he sometimes got from his talks with the boy, though Rhys would never say anything of the sort out loud. He would probably not even think it.
And Levi..well Levi deserved someone who wasn’t completely out and gay. Kristian wasn’t even sure if Rhys was gay, but he definitely had his doubts about the boys claim to be asexual. Maybe it was because he was afraid to come out, maybe just because he was too deep in denial about most things. Yes, Levi and Rhys could help each other.
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