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Post by felix on Jan 7, 2009 22:46:45 GMT 1
Felix nodded at Ryan’s question.
”Weirdly, yeah. It’s really odd, because I worried about everything. I was scared of doing something wrong or anything...” Like abandoning the child. He stared at Seth, who was still happily drooling all over the lollipop and half his hand. ”But they forgive you if you do. And after a while you just... learn, I guess.”
He supposed it did sound ridiculous. It didn’t seem really likely that you’d wake up one day and find things a lot easier. Really, it didn’t work like that. You made mistakes and learnt from them, and eventually it all became second nature.
”I’ve never really...Loved anyone, I suppose. I don’t love her.”
Felix didn’t know how to answer this at first. He was quite taken aback that the boy was being so open to him, he never really knew him very much before today. However, he guessed that the boy probably did not think of it as being open – With the amount of rumours flying around about him, the elder boy assumed that the younger boy felt that it was common knowledge. He nodded slightly, biting his bottom lip.
”I don’t know, man...” He wasn’t going to try and make up some rubbish and attempt to give him help when he knew he couldn’t. He did, however, decide to offer him a possible suggestion. ”Maybe you’d end up loving her... eventually? Or... Some crap like that...”
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Post by ryan on Jan 7, 2009 22:58:32 GMT 1
Ryan, at this point, simply didn’t care. Felix was the only one he knew around here with a baby, well, aside from Reese, but she was an adult. Felix had been slightly older than he was when he got Seth, and he didn’t think things would be much different for him once he finally saw that baby. He’d have to get used to it, even though he wouldn’t be alone like the Gryffindor was. He had to admit, he didn’t think he could do it...raise a baby on his own.
Parting his lips to actually admit to this, the boy mentioned something about ending up in love, claiming afterwards that it was probably a load of crap. ”I don’t know” He answered softly, shrugging a shoulder, not even bothering to pull up the façade this time. Normally he would be a little more withdrawn, would play things pretty close to the chest, but he felt this insane urge to share. To find out more about this future that suddenly seemed even more surreal than usual.
”I don’t even know what love is, stupid as that might sound. There’s this one thing...with some guy...but that will never amount to anything. It can’t.” Especially not now. Tristram...well things were difficult enough, he doubted that bringing a baby into the mix would make them any simpler.
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