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Post by callykhs2 on Jan 11, 2009 3:09:10 GMT 1
Alexis was sitting at a table near the windows, trying to concentrate on her Astonomy homework. It was evening and she'd barely wanted to eat but she didn't want to go outside to try and do her charts in the freezing cold. So here she was, trying to look at the stars through the giant bay windows and write down her observations. It wasn't going all that great and her brother had been spending a lot of time with that Ravenclaw. Alexis made a mental note to seek that boy out and ask him what his intentions were.. she didn't want to see Gale hurt.
Flipping through a few pages of her book she sighed loudly before she went back to her telescope. She was looking at Orion, pretty much the easiest constellation to find in the night sky instead of looking for whatever complicated thing she was supposed to be looking for. Her mind really wasn't into astronomy at the moment and kept wandering to the events that had happened earlier this week. Mainly, Aiden Lockhart.
She huffed from just the thought of that boy. The things he said to her made her glad she had slapped him. He deserved it, he deserved worse but that was all Alexis could do before getting as far away from him as she could. She ignored him during class and whenever she was forced to partner up with him during a class she almost flipped but was civil to him. She just hoped that she didn't have to run into him outside of class, she didn't know what would happen.
Sighing softly she twisted a few knobs on the telescope before pulling away and just scribbling something down. She looked down at her lap with she felt something pawing at her knees and smiled when she saw it was her cat. "Hey Idjit.." she murmured, scooping the animal up and giving her a cuddle. She picked up her quill to start writing again when the cat started batting at the feather "Stop that.." Lex chastised her pet but couldn't help but giggle softly since it amused her too.
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Post by aiden on Jan 14, 2009 15:05:59 GMT 1
Aiden entered the library with his head down. He'd been on the look out for nurses from St. Mungos since his run in with Alexis. He was sure she would have snapped by now and called them although enough time had passed by now to prove to him that she hadn't.
She was a good person and he'd completely blown it. He'd handled her roughly and spoken to her like a complete monster. It was unforgiveable what he'd done and perhaps the reason the St. Mungos nurses hadn't found him yet was because he was throwing up a lot. Lately he'd been able to find the most creative places to hide himself and get sick over what he'd done and while thinking about what he might do if he came across her again.
His anger had passed and he was right back to completely placing the blame on his shoulders again. And on his defective brain. He was completely wrong and he truly did want to say sorry. He had a bargaining chip in case the situation arose.
As it happened, he rounded the corner and there she was at a table near the corner, working. He froze and thought about running away and leaving her be but then he'd always be running. He gathered up his nerves and shuffled slowly to her table with his head down. He got as close as he dared and cleared his throat.
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Post by callykhs2 on Jan 14, 2009 23:48:56 GMT 1
Alexis was completely oblivious to any other being passing by the table where she was sitting. She was busy amusing herself with her pet, watching the animal steal her quills and roll around on the floor before hopping back into her lap. She'd give the cat a quick cuddle before Idjit hopped off her lap to play on the floor with something and Alexis got a little more work finished by the time she heard someone clearing their throat.
She thought maybe it was Gale and held up a finger to indicate 'hold on' as she wrote something down copying out of a book. Running her fingers through her hair she lifted her head to say hi when she saw who it was. A look of shock was plastered on her face then it melted into slight anger and then settled on annoyance. "What do you want?" she wanted to throttle her cat when Idjit walked across the table to meow at the newcomer.
”Idjit!” she hissed, patting her book wanting her pet to come back over to her and not even look at Aiden. He’d caused her a couple of sleepless nights because she would try to figure out if what happened really was her fault. She didn’t think it was but then at another point in time she thought maybe some of the blame was rightfully hers. She didn’t go to McGonagall because that wouldn’t have done any good. Alexis wasn’t looking for an excuse to toss Aiden back in St. Mungos.. he’d been there so many times already this wasn’t something that called for that extreme punishment.
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Post by aiden on Jan 15, 2009 13:40:08 GMT 1
Wow. She was starting with the name calling so soon. For some reason he wasn't ready for that sort of hostility but then when Aiden really considered it, he completely deserved any and all hostility she had to throw at him. Even actually throwing things.
"You're right." He said weakly. "I am an idiot. A complete and utter idiot for what I did to you and I am so very sorry." His shoulders sagged. It wasn't obvious to anyone but the two of them but her handprint was still on his cheek. He saw it whenever he looked in the mirror. He also saw sleepless eyes and pale skin. This morning, in fact, he hadn't even looked in the mirror because he didn't want to look at himself.
"I was very horrid to you and I am immeasurably sorry for what I did and said in the bathroom. I was angry and humiliated about my own circumstances and it all came out at you. I don't mean any of the things I said. As you pointed out so astutely, I am an idiot and I have some trouble... not being an idiot at times."
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Post by callykhs2 on Jan 16, 2009 19:01:52 GMT 1
She glanced up at him when he called himself an idiot. Her brow furrowed slightly but she waited until he was finished with his speech. Good, he still had a hand-print on his face. That made Alexis feel better that he didn't try to cover it up. Wore his shame so to speak."I didn't call you an idiot, I called my cat's name. IDJIT" she said softly, glad when her cat finally came back over to her and she rubbed the feline behind her ears.
Leaning back in her chair looking a little worn out. Sleep hadn't come easy for her the past few days, brooding over what happened with Aiden and not being able to concentrate or relax fully. She still wanted that bubble bath but had no intention on running into the Lockhart boy there again. She'd rather deal with a blast-ended skewert without a wand.
She let her mind wander a little, not giving Aiden anything like an acceptance of apology. He should squirm for a few more days for all she cared. She didn't want to forgive him easily, he had hurt her feelings with his words, but he was right in hearing her wrong. He was an idiot for saying and doing those things. "Yeah.." she started quietly, messing with her quill on the table top "You should be sorry and frankly, I'm not really sure I can forgive you for calling me a whore. I can't help but wonder if you did actually mean to say those things, and you're just passing it off since you have trouble not being an idiot sometimes."
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Post by aiden on Jan 21, 2009 14:45:46 GMT 1
"I didn't mean it. I was embarassed and humiliated and hurt and you had nothing to do with that." Aiden fought the urge to get down on his knees and beg her forgiveness. Everyone would see him and then the rumours about him would be more horrendous than usual. But, if he truly had to, his knees would hit the floor. He wanted her friendship back so badly.
"Look, I wasn't naked because of Peeves. I was waiting for someone." He lowered his voice because he only wanted her to hear this. He had to level with her. Honesty was good. He hoped it mught pay off. "I've been having relapses, as you've seen. I know I can conquer them but I have to learn to figure out my responses to things to I can stop the triggers. I know you can help me with that." He tried to smile but he was so nervous. "I like you. As a friend." He wanted to clarify even if that wasn't quite the clarification he wanted to make. "That's why I have these problems. I won't ever be in my right mind again if I can't learn to handle these emotions when they show up. I brought you something."
Meekly, he reached into his school bag and took out her pajama bottoms. "I washed them and pressed them. They are as good as knew. Better even. I can never thank you enough for letting me wear them the other night. I didn't deserve anything from you but you helped me anyway. It means a lot to me that you are so kind... and, hopefully, forgiving."
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Post by callykhs2 on Jan 22, 2009 5:06:24 GMT 1
He was embarrassed and humiliated? Last time Alexis checked, she hadn’t called him a bunch of derogatory names. She leaned back in her chair fuming quietly that he of all people had to walk into the library tonight. She somewhat tuned out his pleas because she wasn’t ready to forgive him for it. She opened her mouth to cut him off in the middle of his speech but once she saw the look on his face that clearly said that he’d be groveling in 2.0 seconds if she didn’t accept his heartfelt plea she figured she should at least give him another chance.
Sighing deeply she stared at the table again when he mentioned that he wasn’t waiting for Peeves. ”So besides calling me those names, you were also lying?” she arched an eyebrow looking up at him without lifting her head. Then a look of confusion came over her face ”I can help you? How is that going to work when I seem to help trigger them?” she shifted a little in her seat looking at him straight on now and listened to the rest of what he had to say quietly. She couldn’t help but be a little sharp with her comments, she hadn’t been that upset over being called something in a long time.
She almost perked up when he said he’d brought her something, because she loved presents. When she got a look at what it was she bit back a laugh and stayed quiet for a few more moments, not giving any snarky commentary. ”Thanks for bringing my pants back..and for washing them.” she started out, reaching over to take them from Aiden and put them into her own school bag. ”But… how do you know that you won’t go off on me again if you relapse?” She wanted to be his friend, she liked Aiden. He was sweet even if he was a bit screwed up but who wasn’t?
Even if he made a mess of things Alexis wanted to help him out, so she gave in after a moment and gave him what he came here for ”And I suppose I can accept your apology and forgive you for everything… but if you ever do it again, I’ll turn you into a tea cozy or something worse.” she looked him right in the eye when she made the threatening promise, she’d go through with it too.
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Post by aiden on Jan 22, 2009 18:45:42 GMT 1
"And I have no trouble with that." Aiden nodded. He could live with being a tea cozy. It beat being thrown into St. Mungos and being branded a crazy person. Keeping tea warm actually sounded frightfully peaceful.
He smiled at her with that famous bright smile and eagerly took a seat next to her. He was forgiven. He could probably fly if he were asked to. "I want you to listen to the thoughts I've been having about my situation. I know it will be awkward if I'm triggered again but I think it will help me if I can learn to push them back. The more I'm around you, the more opportunities I'll have to experiment with ways of pushing back the feelings. You don't need to worry about my anger. That was me and not the relapse. I promise you I will never get like that around you again. I swear." Aiden even went to the measure of crossing his heart and making some sort of Boy Scout gesture.
"Now, if I do have a relapse where I fall in love with you, I give you permission to hurt me if you have to. I shouldn't hurt you but if I get too grabby, you may kick me in the crotch if you like. I will have no issue with it as I will probably deserve it." Aiden thought this may help him as well, like a dog wearing a zap collar if it gets out of line. He didn't like it but he was on a mission to break these relapses.
"Lastly, never wear anything rose scented around me. Harmony did and I associate roses with love. Even mentioning them can get me going." He stopped talking because he felt the tinglies starting in his head. He was expecting this because everytime something about roses came up this happened. Aiden drew in a deep breath and put his finger up in the air to show her he needed a second. "I've also started breathing excersizes that seem to help." He let out the air in short, controlled bursts, much like a pregnant woman in labor. "This helps me thinks about something else. And sometimes I pass out. Which can also be okay if I'm getting too rowdy."
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Post by callykhs2 on Jan 23, 2009 9:14:34 GMT 1
She smiled fighting back the urge to giggle but the thought of seeing an Aiden-teacozy just tickled her so a quiet giggle slipped out before she grinned back at him. Turning in her chair a bit to look at him and cross her legs under the table she let him ramble on about his ideas on the situation. They all sounded like good ideas, even though she was still a little bit wary of him blowing up on her again.
Even though the ideas sounded good, the way he put it made Alexis feel a little like she was just bait for him and his relapses. She hoped that while she would go along with this to help him break the triggers and get over it that she didn’t just turn into someone he could use. She would be his friend, but she didn’t want to be that person.
She opened her mouth to comment on the rose things when he held up a finger and she remained quiet until he started breathing. That was a little disconcerting that he sounded like a woman in labor for a few minutes then said that the breathing helped. ”Okay..” she mumbled then she stared at him when he mentioned passing out ”How would passing out be good? Look, Aiden. I’ll help you and don’t worry about me wearing ro-“ she cut herself off not wanting to trigger something ”Not wearing anything with that scent, but you’re asking me to do this because I’m your friend, right? Not just because you can use me to get over this?” it wasn’t a very well thought out question but she wasn’t sure how else to say it and didn’t have the time to think it out.
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Post by aiden on Jan 23, 2009 23:43:01 GMT 1
"Yes. Of course. You're a very good friend." He told her. Aiden really did like her. More than in a friendly way which was both why he wanted her to be around and why he was scared of being around her. "You're an excellent friend for putting up with me." He nervous scratched the back of his head. "I can be a trial, I know. You've been so terribly understanding." Then, softer, he said, "I don't deserve you."
But he changed his mood quickly to the old, smiling, happy guy most saw his as. "Passing out is fine. At least I won't be groping you, right? I can't get handsy while I'm out cold on the floor. In time, I hope, this won't be so brutal on me. And you."
"Please, don't ever think I'm using you. You're support and friendship is more than I could have hoped for. I'm a walking jinx and you aren't afraid of me yet."
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