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Post by ashley on Jan 5, 2009 20:18:33 GMT 1
Ashley had been aimlessly babbling, being slightly unnerved by the way Jake stared at him. He wasn’t even sure what he was saying anymore, not that it mattered, because his words were cut off by soft lips onto his mouth. Jake’s lips onto his mouth. Which was like...what? He had about enough time to blink as the older male pulled back, only to be smiled at and kissed again.
There was no way this was an accident. No way in hell. Jake knew what he was doing, the question was...why? Why did the brunette suddenly lean in to kiss him? They had been talking about nothing serious in particular, he wasn’t about to fall asleep...did that mean that aside from it being on purpose, he also had meant to kiss him? Kiss him? Ash was hardly able to think as those soft lips pressed against his, a small sound escaping from his lips as he, ever so slowly, kissed him back.
There were tingles in his stomach, butterflies unfolding their wings as he fully realized what was going on, what he was doing. He was here, on a bed, kissing a guy he was seriously crushing on...perhaps even falling in love with. He doubted that Jake knew that, which was probably for the best. His brown eyes were soft as he looked at him, fingers brushing over the Ravenclaws cheek.
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Post by mikeym on Jan 5, 2009 20:52:31 GMT 1
A little smile presented itself on his lips when he felt Ash kissing him back. The Ravenclaw's stomach was in knots and he was basically a bundle of nerves for being so brass with the kissing. Biting his lip softly when their lips parted, he tilted his head to lean into Ashley's fingers on his cheek. He'd just kissed Ash.. another boy. That was what his mind was repeating over and over. That thought would have scared him shitless a few weeks ago but now..he'd changed. Jake Masello wasn't going to laugh off awkward sexual questions anymore. He thought he could answer them truthfully for the first time. Did he like guys and only guys? Well..he still wasn't one-hundred percent sure of that but he knew that he did like this one, this blond that was cuddled up somewhat to his chest and touching his face.
A little blush settled across Jake's cheeks and he looked down before his blue eyes met the warm brown. His stomach was still knotted up, but was just slightly starting to relax a little. "Hope that was okay" was all that he could think of to say, and that just about made him want to die. What a cheesy line. Guess it could have been worse and he could have said 'Sorry' but he wouldn't have been sorry for the actual kiss, just the timing. One thing that he was sure of now.. Ash's lips might look angel soft, but they were even softer when you had your own pressed against them.
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Post by ashley on Jan 5, 2009 21:16:36 GMT 1
"Hope that was okay"
Ashley couldn’t help but laugh softly at that, his fingers tracing Jake’s eyebrow with a very gentle movement. The fact that he seemed so insecure after being so bold made him feel warm inside, a happy look on his face. ”Okay? That was...a lot more than okay” Both the kiss and the fact that the brunette had kissed him. He was still wondering if he was dreaming, actually going as far as to pinch himself, not bothering to hide it.
”Ow...Guess I’m really not dreaming then?” He leaned his head against the Ravenclaws shoulder for a moment, pressing a small kiss to his cheek as he laced their fingers, watching them for a moment. ”What made you decide to do that?” Not that he minded. Oh no, not in the slightest. He just couldn’t help but wonder what it would lead to...whether or not Jake actually wanted something from him.
He hoped that it would lead to something good, because he knew for a fact that they could be wonderful, if they ever decided to try. Ashley didn’t want to rush him into anything though, so he just leaned his head back on Jake’s shoulder, admiring the way their hands fit together.
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Post by mikeym on Jan 5, 2009 23:13:19 GMT 1
Jake laughed softly when Ash did at his question, his laugh made it seem not like such a stupid question. He arched the brow that Ash's fingers had touched when he saw him pinch himself. "What are you.." he trailed off shaking his head when he said that. "Nah.. it's not a dream" he said, biting his lip a little at the kiss to his cheek. That spot had a little tingle after Ash settled his head on his shoulder. In fact most of his body was tingling in a nice way at the moment.
He looked down at their hands, twisting them and a bit surprised at how well they just melted together. "Um.. to be honest?" he started, pausing for a few beats before continuing "Your mouth.. just.. I just wanted to" his voice was soft, still a little nervous about all of this but he was getting better with it. The thought of what his dad might say if he found out almost made it not worth it, but then just being there with Ash did make it worth it all.
Come hell or high water right now, Jake was actually happy, truly happy. Not the facade of 'yeah im fine with a forced smile' but happy from the bottom of his feet up to the ends of his hair. He leaned his head against Ash's, brushing his thumb over the back of Ash's slightly smaller hand and after a moment he blurted out what had been floating in the back of his mind since they were up in the Transfiguration corridor "Earlier..when they hurt you...I was freaked. I thought I was gonna lose you."
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Post by ashley on Jan 6, 2009 0:00:08 GMT 1
Not a dream. Those were about the best words that anyone could have told him, and it made his smile deepen, brushing a thumb over Jake’s hand. The fact that their fingers were still laced and the other hadn’t made a move to pull away really made him feel happy. Laughting bubbling up in his throat kinda happy, and he was genuinely beaming at the brunette, squeezing his hand for a moment.
He wondered what on earth was so special or inviting about his mouth – not that he minded, because honestly, if it made Jake want to kiss him then YAY MOUTH! Ash noticed how sweet and nervous he sounded and couldn’t help but nuzzle his skin, feeling utterly proud at the boy for being so forward about things. He knew he’d been the same but hell, his dad wasn’t some weird homophobic army freak. The fact that Jake seemed to deal with things made him feel happy for his friend. It also made him feel slightly awed, that apparently he was a good enough reason to stand up to his father.
"Earlier..when they hurt you...I was freaked. I thought I was gonna lose you."
Ashley shook his head a little, brushing his thumb over the older boys bottom lip. ”Not a chance” Jake would never lose him. He’d never let that happen. Leaving Jake...no. He was already finding it hard enough to face christmas break without him, though that again was something he wouldn’t share right now. The older boy could probably get him to say it anyway though.
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Post by mikeym on Jan 6, 2009 0:43:02 GMT 1
Jake grinned slightly since it had seemed like he made the right decision about kissing Ash. Bad timing or not, this was making the younger male quite bubbly and Jake liked that. A lot, it just made him more attractive. He squeezed his hand back and he shifted just a little to stretch his legs out.
He leaned slightly into the nuzzle, brushing his cheek against Ashley's forehead. Jake was glad that Ash wasn't pushing anything more on him at the moment, not that Ash would push him anyway, but wouldn't have been able to handle much more right now. Part of him wanted to get up and run around the room for feeling this good, and another part still wanted to hide the feelings away in a closet. The thought of break coming up might put a damper on things for him emotionally but he hoped Ash would understand and help him through it when the time came.
Jake glanced down at the thumb on his lip, smiling a little at the feeling and the tender touch. "Good" he gave Ash's side a little poke with his fingers before tilting his head a bit "I meant it earlier.. that you should come to London over break" He wasn't sure what would happen if the younger boy came there to spend time with him, but with Ash he felt like he could take on the world and conquer it.
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Post by ashley on Jan 6, 2009 1:01:32 GMT 1
When Jake told him that he really did want Ashley to come to London for break, he couldn’t help but smile again. His jaws were practically starting to hurt, but he felt so good. Like some weight had been lifted, like he was finally able to be genuinely happy. Sure they were both a little damaged, working through their issues, but they were together, albeit not in the strictest sense of the word. The Hufflepuff pondered on that for a moment, not able to withhold his question.
”As your friend?” He asked it quietly, chocolate eyes looking up at the other boy. ”Or as your boyfriend?” Chances were he was pushing things, beyond their limit, but part of him wanted to know. Not because he so desperately wanted an answer, but because at least then he would know how to act. What if he’d get to meet Jake’s parents? Sure, his dad wouldn’t like him, but he’d be tempted to make a better impression if this was going to be something precious. If he planned on being..around and involved, so to say.
Glancing up at the boy, he gave him a smile that said this answer didn’t have to be the perfect one just now. It was just a question, and it wasn’t like he’d leave and never talk to Jake again if the other said he’d prefer to be friends for now. Granted, the blonde would be slightly hurt, but he’d deal. The last thing he wanted was to make things more difficult for the Ravenclaw.
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Post by mikeym on Jan 6, 2009 1:27:18 GMT 1
Jake looked at him for a moment before looking over at the fire crackling still to think about his response. Even if they didn't turn into more, Ash would still be his friend for sure, he had no doubt about that. "What if I said I can give you a clear answer whenever you come there?" he knew answering a question with another question was somewhat cowardly but he wasn't exactly sure which would be the correct one right now.
He pulled his lower lip into his mouth to bite down on for a moment before letting it go. He didn't want those happy and hopeful brown eyes to turn into sad ones. He was in a really good mood right now and could tell that Ashley was pretty ecstatic as well.
[ooc - sucky post >> sorry lol]
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Post by ashley on Jan 6, 2009 1:35:37 GMT 1
"What if I said I can give you a clear answer whenever you come there?"
Ashley frowned for a moment, pushing himself up a little and pressing a small kiss to Jake’s cheek. ”Then I’d say that I’m hoping break will come soon...and that in the mean time, once in a while, I can do this..” With that he leaned in slightly, brown eyes meeting the others blue ones for a moment, before he leaned in fully and kissed Jake ever so softly. It was a simple kiss, demanding nothing, but giving everything. He didn’t want the brunette to feel forced into anything, not when he was only still coming to terms with possibly being gay.
So when the short, sweet kiss ended, Ash just went back to putting his head on the others shoulder, letting one arm slip over the older boys waist, his fingers going back to doodling on his shirt. It was one of his favorite positions, being close enough to touch but not being on top of someone. This was much more intimate, to him at least. Prodding at the boys stomach, he found himself with the childish desire to have a thumb war, which was how ridiculously happy Jake Masello made him.
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Post by mikeym on Jan 6, 2009 9:15:43 GMT 1
Jake knew that it wasn't the answer Ashley was probably hoping for but that was the best he could come up with right now. He wasn't willing to take the chance of saying one thing and then not being able to follow through. He smiled just slightly at the kiss to his cheek, leaning into it some and he was surprised with the real kiss Ash planted on him. Returning it gently, gentle blue eyes followed Ash's movements back to his shoulder.
At least he didn't seem upset, so that made Jake feel a little better. He rubbed the back of his own neck when Ash let his hand go to doodle things on his stomach again. This cuddle-like position was nice, Jake hadn't done it much with any of his previous girlfriends. He mumbled a quiet 'ouf' when he was poked in the stomach and he eyed Ash in a mock annoyed way.
"What are you poking me for?" he mumbled prodding his stomach in return lightly. He suddenly wanted to have a pillow fight or tickle fight with Ash, something fun and something to lighten the mood even more.
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